The Time of Loosing S.O.S

Dedicated to Oscar Buchanan, Gerald Wilborn, and Keisha Bowls and everyone else who has lost someone that they loved truely. 

(thanks Oscar for letting me see this video

I love it and listen to it almost everyday)

I would like to start off by saying, yall know I'm crying all my ways through this.  I love yall so much and this journey that we are taking means that we are not the same as before.  Everyone expects you to be happy afterwards and to move forward, but how can you move forward when everything stops at that sad day, everyone expects you not to drown in your own tears and be strong.  All sorts of things go through your mind; especially doubt.  No one taught me about doubt, doubt is the most creepiest thing that will ever be on your back trying to go forward; church can't even teach you about doubt.  Its something that you will have to learn on your own to make it out of.  No one has ever made you so happy, no one has every made you solid and confidante about yourself, you feel all that is gone and no one can amount to those levels ever.  But there is light at the end of the tunnel, just stay focus on the light. Doubt is the bad energy because you don't know whether to go left or right, you want to pull out of it, but crying inside just a little while longer makes it better in the inside sometimes.  Don't loose focus on the good energy consume yourself with good energy, cause no one knows whats inside your head besides you.  So if you have to talk to yourself... get it out! scream if you have too!.  Loosing someone sucks, its a pain that I cannot describe, but when you lay down and dream about your love one, for one you are mad that you woke up and want to finish the dream, second... you want to try and relive that dream all day, its like they came and visit you in your dreams cause that's they only time they get to have you all by themselves. 
 There is some type of good energy out there... Some say its God, but whatever you believe, believe that good energy will take you where you want to go. I just wanna tell everyone who has lost someone YOU CAN MAKE IT... Time heals... There is light at the end of the tunnel, don't give up! your angels are rooting for you, they have not forgot about you...